My mind never stopped. I was constantly contemplating something. I’d interject others and speak as quickly as possible in an effort to keep up with my own ideas and thoughts. When approached with a problem, I’d go through every possible outcome in an effort to calm my own anxiety.
I thought everyone experienced this. I didn’t realize how much stress I was under daily. I didn’t know my starting point was higher than others. I didn’t realize I was constantly worrying over something.
It wasn’t until I was diagnosed with anxiety that I began to better understand myself. When I started taking medicine, everything seemed to change. At first, I freaked out, because there were times where I caught myself not thinking of anything. I could hear the sound of my own heart beating. I had never experienced that before. Silence was unfamiliar to me.
Medication allowed me to exist in neutral. Medication allowed me to start at a lower stress level and save my energy for what really matters. Medication allowed me to become more open and sociable.
Medication didn’t save my life. I was capable of living without it. Medication made my life fuller.
Stop the stigma.
Seek help if you need it.
Speak up.
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